Since I was a kid, I was surrounded by RPGs, my family always had a console in the house, either nintendo or playstation. I grew up with names such as Zelda, Final Fantasy, Castlevania, and others. Specifically, the games apart of Final Fantasy interested me the most. I first noticed warrior of light, from the first Final Fantasy installment. I also watched quite a lot of YouTube as a kid, which led me to Cloud. I don't remember much from when I was a kid but I tried to supress my nerdy-love for Final Fantasy, as I kept most of my interests a secret. Yet as a got older, around middle school, Final Fantasy VII Remake was released. I was not living in my own home at the time, and all my things were packed away, but by the time I got my Playstation 4 back, my father gifted the game to me. I was so excited that after my middle school graduation I played it all night. I finished the game during the summer, spending every day playing. I then got a nintendo switch for Christmas, which lead me to buy the original Final Fantasy VII and play it. Throughout the years, my love for Cloud became bigger and bigger. At first, I figured I liked him so much because he reminded me of myself. Surpressing his emotion and awkward with his actions, I found comfort in being similar to a well-loved video game protag. Yet as I spent more time in online spaces, around the year before last, I discovered what 'self-shipping' was. At first, I didn't think that I was a yumedanshi (dreaming boy), but the more I read, the more I realized I was. Since then, I've proudly called myself a yumedanshi, because I can never think of another man other than Cloud. When asked my type, I always end up describing him. He means much more to me than just some character from my favorite video game.Since then, I spend every day thinking of him. When I think of him, purchase his merchandise, create art, etc. it truly makes me happy. I wouldn't have it any other way. As I like to say, my love for Cloud exceeds to the ends of time and space. I hope you enjoyed reading our story, and how I came to love him.
with love, felix