happy friday everyone! i hope you guys like the new index for my website. its inspired by the coastal/calm life i want to live. i plan on keeping it updated monthly and working on a few other pages that have been sitting in my dashboard empty for a while. my personal favorite part about the index is the little calendar--which embarrassingly took me about 2 hours to make haha. i finally figured out how to highlight the current date :)
anywho, life has been simple and happy lately--i complete my house chores everyday, code a bit, read books, watch movies, etc. i found solace in the storm of the waiting period between adolescence and adulthood. i was once anxious about these events, yet learned to take it slow and 'go with the flow' a bit (someone very close to my heart made me realize this). i spend more time doing the little things, making sure i dont force myself to abide by my mental schedule of time-tables and insistent productivity. this week ive tried it and i feel much more calm and relaxed than before. i feel as if my depression has taken a vacation; and i hope it never comes back! working on a new index really improved my emotions, and bringing color back into my site--and life--returned the happiness i used to get from coding. i also met someone right out of my dreams--and hes made me the happiest ive ever been. i smile and laugh much more because of him, and im grateful to have found him in such a confusing time in my life. ive never felt so happy to be here before. lately ive been into house md, usually im not much of a 'doctor show' type of person; yet house md is a different kind--intriguing and
funny. i also am only one chapter away from finishing 'if cats dissapeared from the world' by genki kawamura and man, is it good. i highly recommend this book if youre feeling low in life, i wont spoil anything but this book made me view my life in a different way. it drove me to take everything in--every little social interaction, person, animal, insect, plant. i want to take my time in life and live in the present always. im tired of rushing through life trying to be better for the future, when i can enjoy the present. not everyone is gifted the privilege of waking up every morning, and i want to use it. please dont let your life fly past you, enjoy every little moment no matter how mundane. spread lots of love, recieve as much as your heart can hold and then some. life is too short to worry about every little thing. my song for this post is 'champagne coast' by blood orange.
love, felix
